My name is Runi and I was diagnosed November 16, 2005 just a few weeks shy of my 29th birthday. I was repeatedly told that I was too young and too healthy to have breast cancer. Cancer is not prejudice to anyone regardless of age, race or socioeconomic. This is my story and I hope people learn a great deal from it. Feel free to contact me if you have questions or want to simply talk.
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Love
Posted on Crazy Sexy Life and written by Gabrielle Bernstein. I enjoyed her posting so much I thought I would share it with others that may stumble along to my blog.
After being diagnosed with cancer, I changed. There is a new normal. I try to forgive more and really had to focus on forgiveness in the past few years of my life. Life is too short to harbor ill will. It only becomes toxic and harms us. Learning to let go of worries, anger, fear and emotions is something I work on every day. Gabrielle gives it a meaningful and manageable way to become a Lovetarian. (My next posting will hopefully be on flexatrian.)
Here's her wonderful posting:
Four years ago, I decided to clean up my mind and become a loveatarian. Choosing loving thoughts over fearful delusions was a tough transition at first. Giving up fear is like giving up sugar. Much like sugar, fear is a sneaky ingredient that hides out in everything. And just when you think you’ve got it under control all of sudden it pops up again. Therefore releasing fearful patterns requires you become a loveatarian.
One of the key components to my loveatarian lifestyle is my dedication to the teachings of A Course in Miracles. The Course teaches, “An untrained mind can accomplish nothing.” The Course is a self-study metaphysical guide that can be approached in whatever capacity works best for the individual. My experience studying the Course has resulted in a full blown mind cleanse and a super rockin’ life. As soon as I cleaned up my fearful thought patterns everything began to change. The most significant change is not what I experience, but instead, how I experience my experiences. As a result of following the Course’s suggestions I’ve forgiven my past, released my future and show up for the present with love and faith. Like they say in twelve step meetings, “It works if you work it.” Therefore I keep workin’ it on a moment by moment basis.
The crucial ingredients to workin’ the Course’s mind cleanse are the following concepts:
1. “Nothing real can be threatened” – Translation: Only love is real
2. “Nothing unreal exists” – Translation: All fear is an illusion
3. “Herein lies the peace of God” – Translation: Choose love over fear and you will be way more chilled out
So how do you choose love over fear? One word: Forgiveness. The act of forgiveness is to the loveatarian as a wheat grass implant is to the raw foodie. Forgiveness guides us to remove all of the old fear crap and clear space for love. The Course teaches that forgiveness is the key component to bringing the egos darkness to the light. Rather than continuing to play the role of victim we can forgive and be set free. With each choice to forgive you shift your perception from fear to love. The Course teaches that every shift in perception creates a miracle. Miracles are crucial to the lovetarians mind cleanse.
The payoff for sticking to the loveatarian way is that the more you choose forgiveness and love the more miracles you experience. And the more miracles you add up, you become less and less likely to perceive life through fearful lenses. When you choose to perceive love over fear, life gets super fun. You feel peaceful and you see love in all situations. Your fears subside and your life feels guided.
If you’re interested in these kinds of results begin your loveatarian diet today. Proceed with the following plan:
Breakfast: Pray to God/Universe/Inner Guide (or as Kris would say Jesus, Buddha, Elvis whatever)… Talk to whoever you think is listening and ask them for help. Ask the power greater than you to align your thoughts with love just for today. Following your prayer, add in a five minute meditation. In your meditation recite the mantra, “I choose love over fear, I welcome a miracle.” Repeat this out loud throughout your five minute meditation.
Snack: Make a list of all the people you need to forgive.
Lunch: Start forgiving. Go down the list and send a silent blessing to them all. Say out loud or in your mind, “I forgive you and I release you.”
Afternoon Snack: Send a loving email or text message to someone on your forgiveness list. Keep it simple. If you’re having a hard time forgiving just write, “I hope you’re having a great day.”
Dinner: Make a list of everything in your life that you’re grateful for that day.
Late Night Snack: Pray again. Thank (God/Universe or whoever you speak to) for another beautiful day. Say a prayer for anyone in need and everyone on your forgiveness list. Turn your day over and set your intention for a peaceful night sleep.
Like any great diet, true transformation will occur with daily repetition. Begin with a thirty day commitment to start seeing some positive results. By choosing to follow the loveatarian plan for the next thirty days you will begin to reprogram your thoughts from fear back to love. If you dig the results, stick to the plan and commit to a life as a loveatarian. Trust me you’ll feel much lighter!
Saturday, August 15, 2009
?Carpal Tunnel?
I went to see my new neurologist last week and adore her. She asked me about 101 questions, looked me over quite extensively and did random tests on my arms, legs, hands and feet. For starters, she thinks I may have carpal tunnel. I get to wear these fashionable arm splints to bed. I'm so excited about that. She will perform an EMG on me in two weeks. Here's a low down on what it is:
Electromyography, or EMG, involves testing the electrical activity of muscles. Often, EMG testing is performed with another test that measures the conducting function of nerves. This is called a nerve conduction study. Because both tests are often performed at the same office visit and by the same personnel, the risks and procedures generally apply to both tests.
Muscular movement involves the action of muscles and nerves and needs an electrical current. This electrical current is much weaker than the one in your household wiring.
In some medical conditions the electrical activity of the muscles or nerves is not normal. Finding and describing these electrical properties in the muscle or nerve may help your doctor diagnose your condition.
EMG may aid with the diagnosis of nerve compression or injury (such as carpal tunnel syndrome), nerve root injury (such as sciatica), and with other problems of the muscles or nerves. Less common medical conditions include amyotrophic lateral sclerosis, myasthenia gravis, and muscular dystrophy.
Then she questioned me about my headaches/migraines. Whoa! That's not the reason why I went in but she thought a brain MRI would be helpful. Hmmm...I was supposed to get that done and a PET scan during my last scans but it didn't happen. She didn't quite explain to me the need for a brain MRI except to check out my migraine or headache that occurs about once a month which I find it to be more hormonal based. Went in to check on my tingling hands and may need to check my brain after all...
Of course, I googled carpal tunnel when I got home. Possible causes includes: being female (check,) family history of hypothyroid (mom has either hypo or hyper need to ask her but maybe check,) diabetes (check uncle passed away from it,) obesity (I'm not obese but even more reasons to get over my plateu,) and hormonal changes (check after good ole chemo and Tamoxifen.) I'm not liking the idea of carpal tunnel but it seems fairly manageable. Maybe acupuncture may help? Change the way I type? Hopefully I'll learn more after my EMG. Will keep you posted.
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