Happy Mother's Day and My Last Visit with Dr. H

Happy belated Mother's Day!  The above picture was taken two years ago celebrating my youngest nephew's belated 4th birthday.  

As promised, I need to write up an update regarding my last office visit with Dr. H.  It pertains to Mother's Day so I saw it fitting to write about it today.

I saw her end of March since I've graduated to every six months follow-up.  I got off of Tamoxifen end of July and have been without treatment since.  Sleep and sorts were rocky the first few months but it makes sense since I was on Tamoxifen for so long.

I'm 10 months post Tamoxifen and I initially asked Dr. H if I could take a year off of treatment.  The key word is initially.  I'm finally starting to feel "normal," whatever normal is post treatment and now 35.  :)  I opened up the visit with her asking about children.  I don't know if that is an option in my future since I'm 35 and I'm single.  I'm pretty confident after the last FORCE conference and talking to the big breast cancer gurus that I'm not BRCA+.  I don't know if I want children but I don't know if I don't want children either.  I always thought one would be nice and two at the most.  I thinking meeting the one would make it a no brainer.  I don't foresee myself being a single mom since I'm uncertain if I would be able to be a good mom doing it by myself.  Besides her fab shoes Dr. H is always known for her one liners.  She leaned into me when I told her about being uncertain about being a single mom and told me, "Aren't we all single moms?"  In case you didn't know, her husband is also an oncologist and was probably in the office next door to us.  They have two boys.  :)

Anyway, she agreed that I could be off of treatment until I decide not to have children or until I was done having children.   She wants to to see the good folks at MD Anderson to be cautious.  (There is a back story to them also but not so important to add right now.)  So I'm thinking 39/40 the latest as my cutoff.  If not, adoption is always a possibility.

As for routine screenings, we're going to forgo the MRI since I'm allergic to the gadolinium and we're going to forgo the CT to minimize the radiation.  I will have a bilateral chest ultrasound this year and we'll decide about next  year when it comes.